My Chemical Romance- To the end

He calls the mansion not a house but a tomb.
He's always choking from the stench and the fume.
The wedding party all collapsed in the room.
So send my resignation to the bride and the groom.
Let's go down!
This elevator only goes up to ten.
He's not around.
He's always looking at men
Down by the pool.
He doesn't have many friends.
As they are
Face down and bloated snap a shot with the lens.

If you marry me,
Would you bury me?
Would you carry me to the end?

(So say goodbye) to the vows you take
(And say goodbye) to the life you make
(And say goodbye) to the heart you break
And all the cyanide you drank.

She keeps a picture of the body she lends.
Got nasty blisters from the money she spends.
She's got a life of her own and it shows by the Benz
She drives at 90 by the Barbies and Kens.
If you ever say never too late.
I'll forget all the diamonds you ate.
Lost in coma and covered in cake.
Increase the medication.
Share the vows at the wake.
(Kiss the bride)

If you marry me,
Would you bury me?
Would you carry me to the end?

(So say goodbye) to the vows you take
(And say goodbye) to the life you make
(And say goodbye) to the heart you break
And all the cyanide you drank.

(And say goodbye) to the last parade
(And walk away) from the choice you made
(And say goodbye) to the hearts you break
And all the cyanide you drank.

(So say goodbye) to the vows you take
(And say goodbye) to the life you make
(And say goodbye) to the hearts you break
And all the cyanide you drank.

(So say goodbye) to the last parade
(And walk away) from the choice you made
(And say goodnight) to the hearts you break
And all the cyanide you drank.

To the last parade
When the parties fade
And the choice you made
To the End.



i dont know why but it just spoke to me....like it really ment something even though i dont understand......

today hasnt been such a great day...sat at home playing games all day (my dad thinks i went to work....HA!). theres still this gaping hole in my heart from cathy....i lie to my self that im allready over it but im not....and it comes back every now and then....i still cant belive she just get rid of me so easily...its fucking sick that i was so easy to get over and be done with. after all i did for her,all we've been through, after how much i tryed to make everything better, she forgets me in mere days. it all seems like a lie now.....and if it was a lie....i just dont know how to take that......i think its better that i just never know.....ide be to crushed if it was a lie. the only thing i take comfort in now is the fact that one day i will be over her....and i will keeping moveing on....and ill find someone else (which i may have allready). its nice now that i can be angry at her.....i hate always being so god damn considerate and always acting like every thing is my fault and no one else ever fucks up or screws me over....cause its not true.....i want to be bitter and angry and never trust anyone ever again and be mean when i feel hurt and say fuck you im not going to try and make your life easier while no one gives a shit about mine!.........just fuck it all.....

im sorry for those of you who acctualy read this blog because its a sad and pathetic cry for help.....that no one should answer cause im not worth the shit on my shoe....i fucking accept now that im not worth anyones time....and no ones worth my time.....and if i do give you my time....feel special cause im tired of everyone thinking im just around anytime they need me but dont take the time to take an interest in my life.....and im just honestly rambling now......

im gonna go before this turns into a book...but i do love those of you who do care about me...and take atleast some time out of your day for me....i really appreciate you.....just dont let our friendships in such a horrible climax like my last one did

See ya next post!

P.S. i just relized this will be my 40th blog post...Woot!...how many of you can say that!